I'm Scared

Why am I scared of EVERYTHING? I'm spending the night at Renee's cause Adam is "out of town" for work and we're watching tv. I just got SOOOO scared from a COMMERCIAL about psychic kids. I mean it's a freaky commercial. But I hate being this way!!! I didn't tell Renee this but I won't look out the window she is by cause I feel like I'll se a man standing there with a mask on and knife. (writing this is scaring me) When did I develop such irrational fears? How do such fears even develop? I have been like his ALL MY LIFE. Renee and Cliff used to have an intercom system throughout their house when we were little and sometimes they used to turn off all the lights and play the beginning of a song (which I don't remeber. The beginning was, as I remember it, a very evil laugh. So did my fear start here? Or was I already scared?

Below you will find a list of some of my fears...

- Waking up to a man, wearing a mask, standing beside my bed with a knife
- When I get home at night, I get nervous looking for my keys cause I feel like someone is gonna come up behind me, make me let him in, and rob then kill us
- Snakes, Lizards, Mice, Scorpions, Water Mocassins, etc.
- PUBLIC SPEAKING!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Takeoff and Landing on planes (most of the time)
- Closed shower curtains. (Renee always knows when I've been over her house cause the shower curtain will be open) Ask not!
- Driving through a stop sign and hitting someone riding their bike or walking

...Just to name a few!!

Do you guys think I should see a psychologist? Sometimes I do. I don't wanna live with such fears....

Stealing From Family and Friends

Dear MarMar -
I love you dearly my fabulous sister, but why do you insist on stealing the one and only talent I possess? I mean, can I get a break here?! =(

Love,
MishMish


p.s. Your purse mushroom phyllo thing was yummy.

ANGER!!!

I just had this sudden but understandable bout of anger rush through me! So my dad recently moved his office. And the lady that works with him is out of town so I offered to come to the office to help my dad out. And I know what some of you may be thinking, my dad has become hitler again. No! It's not my dad this time! There is a neighboring office inside the building that belongs to a young CHALDEAN guy my age. And for the past couple hours there have been young guys and one girl going in and out. Which is fine, it's their office they can do as they please BUTTTTT WHY DO THEY FEEL THE NEED TO TALK LOUD ENOUGH FOR ME TO HEAR THEM ALONG WITH ANYONE ELSE IN THE BUILDING?!?? And if you could hear the one guy that was talking most of the time, you would feel this same anger. Typical chaldean voice, accent and vocabulary. Where do these people develop an accent if they're born here?? An exact quote from one of the guy's phone conversations: "bro, she has a bad ass body!...No bro, her face is nice too" AHHHHHHH!!! And then the stupid little girl in her ditzy stupid voice "OH MY GODDDD STOP IT!" "OH MY GOD!! He DID? They're GORGEOUS...AWWWWW" Do you guys know the voice and accent I'm talking about???? SO ANNOYING! At one point I called Anita at work to talk me out of going in there and just bashing some of their faces in. Sorry, but writing this helped. Have a great day!

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