I'm Scared

Why am I scared of EVERYTHING? I'm spending the night at Renee's cause Adam is "out of town" for work and we're watching tv. I just got SOOOO scared from a COMMERCIAL about psychic kids. I mean it's a freaky commercial. But I hate being this way!!! I didn't tell Renee this but I won't look out the window she is by cause I feel like I'll se a man standing there with a mask on and knife. (writing this is scaring me) When did I develop such irrational fears? How do such fears even develop? I have been like his ALL MY LIFE. Renee and Cliff used to have an intercom system throughout their house when we were little and sometimes they used to turn off all the lights and play the beginning of a song (which I don't remeber. The beginning was, as I remember it, a very evil laugh. So did my fear start here? Or was I already scared?

Below you will find a list of some of my fears...

- Waking up to a man, wearing a mask, standing beside my bed with a knife
- When I get home at night, I get nervous looking for my keys cause I feel like someone is gonna come up behind me, make me let him in, and rob then kill us
- Snakes, Lizards, Mice, Scorpions, Water Mocassins, etc.
- PUBLIC SPEAKING!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Takeoff and Landing on planes (most of the time)
- Closed shower curtains. (Renee always knows when I've been over her house cause the shower curtain will be open) Ask not!
- Driving through a stop sign and hitting someone riding their bike or walking

...Just to name a few!!

Do you guys think I should see a psychologist? Sometimes I do. I don't wanna live with such fears....

Stealing From Family and Friends

Dear MarMar -
I love you dearly my fabulous sister, but why do you insist on stealing the one and only talent I possess? I mean, can I get a break here?! =(

Love,
MishMish


p.s. Your purse mushroom phyllo thing was yummy.

ANGER!!!

I just had this sudden but understandable bout of anger rush through me! So my dad recently moved his office. And the lady that works with him is out of town so I offered to come to the office to help my dad out. And I know what some of you may be thinking, my dad has become hitler again. No! It's not my dad this time! There is a neighboring office inside the building that belongs to a young CHALDEAN guy my age. And for the past couple hours there have been young guys and one girl going in and out. Which is fine, it's their office they can do as they please BUTTTTT WHY DO THEY FEEL THE NEED TO TALK LOUD ENOUGH FOR ME TO HEAR THEM ALONG WITH ANYONE ELSE IN THE BUILDING?!?? And if you could hear the one guy that was talking most of the time, you would feel this same anger. Typical chaldean voice, accent and vocabulary. Where do these people develop an accent if they're born here?? An exact quote from one of the guy's phone conversations: "bro, she has a bad ass body!...No bro, her face is nice too" AHHHHHHH!!! And then the stupid little girl in her ditzy stupid voice "OH MY GODDDD STOP IT!" "OH MY GOD!! He DID? They're GORGEOUS...AWWWWW" Do you guys know the voice and accent I'm talking about???? SO ANNOYING! At one point I called Anita at work to talk me out of going in there and just bashing some of their faces in. Sorry, but writing this helped. Have a great day!

My wedding song:

My favorite disney movie!

I absolutely LOVE this song. And I love this movie too.

LOOK WHO'S BACK!!

I'm kind of actually excited! haha!

Obsessed

Renee, I'll agree that the Linkin Park song is a little annoying when he keeps repeating "I bleed it out...." So, here is a more mellow song that I'm obsessed with. Marie HATES when I play music over and over again but yesterday, when she was not home, I put it on repeat for over an hour.



I'll be honest, I'm kinda mad that I even like this song after finding out that Billy Corgan sings it. I used to HATE smashing pumpkins when Marie loved them! But it's like eating bruschetta and loving it then saying "gross! it's made out of tomatoes? i HATE it!" You can't really take it back once you've liked it. So anyways, I love that song...

Linkin Park

I'm obsessed with this song right now...especially the beginning

Arizona

Oh how I miss Arizona! I love it there. I've never actually liked pools or the heat but I think that is slowly changing. Actually, it's probably just that I don't like the humidity that comes along with MI or FL heat. It was 90 degrees and absolutely PERFECT in AZ! I don't have pictures yet cause my friends are slacking on uploading them but here are a few I took from my phone:

The backyard of the beautiful house I'm obsessed with!...


The "dusty" bottles =)


What our days consisted of...


The song of the trip...



So my question to you all is....WHO CHOSE MI?

Think Before You Smoke...

We all know that cigarettes are bad for us. But have you ever really looked into what cigarettes and cigarette smoke contain? I went to thetruth.com to show Renee some of their very clever commercials but found so much more!!! How do you feel after reading the following?:

* Hydrogen Cyanide is found in cigarette smoke. Hydrogen Cyanide is also used in prison executions.
* Acetic Acid is found in cigarettes. Acetic Acid is also found in floor wipes.
* Insects have been found in cigarettes. Insects are also found in dirt.
* Sodium Hydroxide is found in cigarettes. Sodium Hydroxide is also found in hair remover.
* Acetanisole is found in cigarettes. Acetanisole is also an ingredient in some perfumes.
* Toluene is found in cigarette smoke. Toluene is also found in dynamite.
* Hydrogen cyanide is found in cigarette smoke. Hydrogen cyanide is also in rat poison.
* Formaldehyde is found in cigarette smoke. Formaldehyde preserves the dead.
* Geraniol is found in cigarettes. Geraniol is also found in pesticides.
* Acetone is found in cigarette smoke. Acetone also removes nail polish.
* Hydrazine is found in cigarettes. Hydrazine is also found in rocket fuel.
* Toluene is found in cigarette smoke. Toluene is also found in gasoline.
* Cadmium is found in cigarettes. Cadmium is also found in batteries.
* Cinnemaldyhyde is found in cigarettes. Cinnemaldehyde is also found in pet repellant.
* Methanol is found in cigarettes. Methanol is also found in antifreeze.
* Urea is found in cigarettes. Urea is also found in Pee.
* An ingredient in mothballs- naphthalene- is also found in cigarette smoke.
* There are 11 known human carcinogens in cigarette smoke.

Those are just a few of the up to 599 additives found in cigarettes and cigarette smoke.

One of the clever commercials I showed Renee:

OH MY FUCK!!!!!

I'm ready to cancel my trip to AZ....I am NOT kidding, if i see one of these anywhere near me....omg I don't even know what I'd do. What am I supposed to do? I am being 100% serious, what do you do if a snake is near you? Run in zigzags? Oh wait no, that's an alligator. Do you just run from a snake? Can they outrun/outslither a human? I'm gonna navigate a hospital on my phone from now. =(

The heading for this video was "Rattlesnake on the patio in Cave Creek"



p.s. if you're wondering how I found this, I youtubed "Cave Creek", the city where the house we're staying at is, and this shit came up.